Curcol: Innocence in three years

 Three years, I hope it wasn’t too fast. I have finished my 7th midterm test, so it must be more then three years. Ya, it must be three years that I have been passed without realizing. When talking about having passed the time, I’m thinking about the change. What have been changed in me? Three years is not short time to try the best become an independent in this new place. New place, new town, without knowing much about others. Not much people I knew. Yeah, I felt lonely but also I felt happy that I could live far away from my family.

One of my biggest problem in new place is that I’m not an easy person to make relation with others. I’m not good in joining social relation. Everything was felt so strange and made me uncomfort. Even, I feel it that way right now, too. I could adapt to myself, but not with others. I can’t make me always like their perception and also they can’t too. Sometimes, it made me sad, made me feel alone, made me feel tired, but it’s me. I cannot be always like what all people want. Selfish? Egoist? Maybe, it is. Yeah, it is me.

Ah ya, back to the topic about changed and, in my opinion, nothing gonna changed is impossible. One of them is like starting to listen rock as my music recentlly. Before of it, I couldn’t really enjoy rock. Not many rock song that I could hear, except some of anime soundtrack. That is one of some reason, I have listened the music of NoisyCell recently.It’s a Japanese rock band that one of its song is a soundtrack of Barakamon, an anime that I have watched. The entitled of the song is ‘Innocence’, it becomes my favorite one in its album. Even it is a Japanese band, its song is written in English, so I can more easily to understand it. I have looked for the liryc of ‘Innocence, so you can enjoy it too. This song has hard japanese rock music, but I love the way it could touch me.

Innocence - NoisyCell

"It's is five O 'Clock", an evening-glow tells me

A Treasure of our memories, it's become empty, somehow

You held out a small hand, Smiling, like to you it was so natural

It may have no meaning, but it is something I can not do

You touched my hand without thinking, but it was nice for me

All the time that we believed, that the world's in our hands

We were wrong, maybe it wasn't, I just wanna hope so,

when I'm holding your hand

"Would you hold my hand?", Could I have ever said that?

I can't remember...

Why is it unclear?, I guess I'm just not who I used to be

At times I cried and cried, and at times I smiled

All the time we could not believe, that the world's in our hands

We were wrong, In fact it was, cause you're holding my hand now

We have always been part of the world, and the world has never changed

How about you? How about me? We just know that we have changed

All the times that we believed, that the world's in our hands.

We were wrong, maybe it wasn't, cause you're holding my hand now

We've always been part of the world, and the world has never changed

How about you? How about me? We just know that we have changed

At every moment, Everywhere, I can't believe, I can't believe,

when I'm holding your warm hand.

Your warm hand!

At times I cried and cried, and at times I smiled

NoisyCell, I love the music and also the lirycs. I love the way they touch my hearing and also my heart. I like the voice of Ryosuke-san that give a gentle touch in their songs. I like the ‘screaming’ of Ryo-san which always make me startled, but his guitar strains always make me never bored with their songs. And also I like drum beat of Kiyoshi-san that make my heart can also follow their strains. All of these are just like to realizing that someone you love is closed to you. You said that you’re not interested, but after you listen it more, you can fall in his charm too.

This may be one of the changed in three years, enjoying to listen the rock music. And I think that this band has a magical touch to open my heart, which other songs haven’t had it. NoisyCell has something in its music that could make me enjoy the strains. Then, it makes me looking for about them by internet, but there is not much information I get about them. I only know about this album with seven song and one instumental. I think it maybe their debut album, but this is great. I’ll wait their next music.

Yeah, their album has just finished playing (maybe for 3 times, hehehee). I tought have to start my other tasks before they start to play chasing each other for the deadline in my head. Ahahaa... Maybe this is only one of my changing, but the point I want to say in this that there have been many event happening in three years of my live. They have made me like this now and this is me. Do you want to accept me with all of my condittions? Or maybe, do you want to wait for me getting all of my targets, here in my life?

I hoped you had agreed with the second option, because I only wanted to say,

“I'll fly up to you when I catch the wind with my wings.”

(Handa Seishuu- Barakamon).